| My Precious son:
Reid,today, 4 months ago, is the last time I saw you. You were sitting in the recliner, watching TV, when Patrick called wanting you to ride with him and Glenn to Jacksonville, AR to watch them get tattoos. It was 10:10 p.m. and Patrick had just gotten off work. I told you that it would be really late when you returned home, with Patrick and Glenn, each, getting a tattoo. You told me not to worry, asked me to think about letting you get a tattoo for your birthday that next week (June 8) and I told you that would be fine. You told Patrick and Glenn that you wanted ME to help you pick one out and you wanted ME to go with you to get it. You told me not to worry, took the cellphone, hugged & kissed me and told me you loved me. I told you I love you and to be careful. That was the last time I ever touched you and heard your precious voice and felt your precious arms around me. Reid, how I regret not telling you NO, that you couldnt go, How I miss you and wish I could go back to that moment. I had told you NO before. You didnt like it, but, oh well! I am so sorry. You loss is killing me and I....I dont know what to do. There is nothing I can do, because you know that if I could, I would. I always did whatever I possibly could for you. You always have had me wrapped around your little finger and you knew it. My precious son, I am so sorry for not telling you NO. I just hope and pray to God that he will help me and carry me through each day until I can stand on my own 2 feet again. I love you and need you so badly. I love you my son, since the day I knew you existed, I have always loved you and always will. Love to you my darling son. Mom October 1, 2001
|"Reid-sugar, Im still here loving and missing
you. I hope to see you soon!!!
Forever yours, Dawn"
I saw the eagle mount the wind
And soar into the stormy sky,
Catching each gust with strong wing,
He let the storm lift him high
Above the craggy, snowcapped peak.
Unafraid, trusting the power within,
The might to soar and seek
East updraft along the canyon rim,
To carry him even higher.
Oh bird, you touched a troubled heart.
Your trust did my own inspire.
Even if the storms do not depart,
I've found within myself the power
To use the very storms of life
To surmount each dark hour,
Trust god, let the winds of strife
Or grief or fear not keep me low
But through faith, be a catalyst
To seek the heights I need to know
To make a better world and fears resist.
Minnie Boyd Popish
Suzanne October, 2 2001
My dear child, as I sit here with tears rolling down my cheeks, I think of all the wonderful times we had and memories that we made. You gave me so much joy. I drove from work, into town, just to see if you were there. Everytime I would think about you or see you, see that beautiful smile that was bigger than life itself,gave me so much joy and love each and everyday. Reid, I sometimes think you had no idea how blessed I feel for God giving you to me. I will always feel that way. The way that you changed my life and every smile that I saw, every sparkle in your eye, gave me reason to go on each and every day, even though, you know, alot of those days were difficult as we struggled to make ends meet. We did without, but that just didnt seem to matter. We had each other and that is what really mattered to both of us. You loved your friends, but whether they were here or not, as long as you knew that I would be here for you, you were happy. You knew and have always known that I was always here for you and would do anything in this entire world for you. You had me wrapped around your little finger. I knew that and you would laugh about it. You knew that you could get anything out of me that I possibly could give to you and you did. You know that I love you unconditionally and have always loved you and Kimbre in that way. I think that is the only way to really love another, is unconditionally. Whether you went to school, laid out of school, worked or didnt work, I loved you and still love you. I knew and know what kind of young man that you grew to be and that I had done a good job with being a mother to you. The last 6 years have been the most wonderful years of my life, with you and Kimbre. Yes, when you were a baby and growing up, there are wonderful memories, but when you grew up to be such a wonderful, handsome youngman, our mother-son relationship flourished. We were mother-son and also best friends. You tried being a big brother/father type to Kimbre and you were wonderful at that as well. She listened to you and everyday looked forward to hanging out with you. She loves you so much and looked up to you in a way that I dont think you even realized. I would laugh when you would come to me and be mad at me because you thought Kimbre should be grounded and I didnt ground her. Oh maybe for a day or so, then you would remind me that she needed discipline for doing whatever it was that she had. That still cracks me up!
For all the computer stuff that you taught me, thank you.
For all the breakfasts in bed that you cooked for me, thank you.
For all the wonderful little treasured things you created for me at school and here at home, thank you.
For all those "chillin out" moments, thank you.
For all those wonderful mischevious grins and smiles, thank you.
For all the joy you brought to me, thank you.
For all the love and laughter that we shared, thank you.
For being my precious son and taking care of me, thank you.
Thank you my dear son for everything, absolutely everything.
I love you. Oh God, how I love
you and miss you. Loving you always my son, Love, Mom (October 5,
Reid, my sweetie, I miss you so much. Its seems to get a tiny bit better each day. Your mom and I were on the computer last night going through your songs. They made me laugh because I could just see you beside me, singing them to us. I hated that kind of music, now I listen to it everyday. When Im around Kimbre, I see you. She is so much like you. You are with me every night in my sleep. If it wasnt for that I dont know what Id do. I want you to know that I love you and only you. Whatever I do in the future is only to pass the time until Im with you again. Something about 4 years in one dream. For now Ill just smile and think of you. I love you.
Forever yours, Dawn
i miss you reid there is no other way for me to put it......
life isnt fair sometimes i wish you were here
Today is all Hallows eve!! I miss you and I wish you could be here with me. I Love you! Happy Halloween!
Forever yours, Dawn